having depression and being a fanfic writer is so wild because it’s like, your pour your heart and soul into writing and setting up this universe and you do it for yourself to escape and it calms you. and then you share it with the world and get like. no feedback. and then the lack of feedback makes you wonder whether your writing is good enough/interesting enough/anything enough and you start comparing yourself with other Better and More Popular writers and it ruins your self esteem even more because the one thing you thought you were good at isn’t even that good and you can’t even enjoy writing anymore. not to mention that you can’t ask for commissions or donations because that’s “selfish” so you’re just left writing into the void eith no response and no money and leaving you wondering why you even fucking bother.